7 OF JUNE...

yea
its 7 of june 2010...
1st day of my college life
after all the survey & many many things
at last i drop myself at segi
1st day dad fetch me go then the continues day use bus...
feel hmmm.....how to say
jz feel unreal i'm in college now
still like dream...lol
a bit stupid....==
ok 1st day
jz enter the college saw my friends albee...hehe make me feel better
at least i hv someone tht i knw here.... saw alex too...haha
my taekwondo senior
go to office & take the form...dunno wad form they call...lol
jz a form la
ask them to fill then knowing i take 2 subj for this sem
principle of tourism & principle of marketing
then searching for the class
1 thing to say
i jz like entering a hotel with many rooms...
& the rooms is with no.
lol
my 1st clas at room 303
dunno which floor.....BLURRR...@@
jz follow ppl
a guy name Dexter? haha
i heard he asking the ppl there
where is the class so jz follow his back....hehekk....^^''
so we enter the room 303 having 1st class
searching for a sit...
found an empty place at 2nd row nearest to the wall
so jz sit there...
met 2 friends there
karen kueh & wyethley
haha
glad to know them...happy!! hehe^.^
so jz join them till the class last...
having break time at 12++
jz knew tht today class is till 5pm...=.=
my counselor Yeo...
told me till 12.30 only...
ughhh.....==and i was told also i hv to pay RM 1590
1st.....goshh where come the $
my dad & mum blame me again....:C
luckily wiyi tell me...
explain tht jz hv to pay RM 400
which is the exam fees....
wondering Yeo is real counselor or not
ishhh
geram all the info frm him is wrong...don wan ask him anymore....>=(
continue to 2nd class....i don eat during break...haihzz
then we go for commercial of law class...
saw some of familiar face in the class so jz enter
really blurrr liao...haha
the lecturer james
nice...
very concentrate in the class...hmmm
then the class finish
suddenly another lecturer oso i think
came to our class & say
we enter wrong class...not only us laa....lol=.=
no wonder the class too crowded hv to change class & hv to share the sit some more...zzZZZ=__=!!
& i go to the office to settle my thins there
i was asking how ler...1st day enter wrong class...
they said nvm...=.=
SWT!!
I missed one class....hishhh!!!
ok end back home...
go to my aunt hostel there wait for my dad to fetch me...
verrrrrrrryyyyyy hungry as i din take my lunch
luckily my aunt...haha call me
''eat ord ?wan eat togeher?''
''wannnn!! ''
haha
replies from me...lol
then walk to parkson eat kfc!!!
haha
jzzzzz nice~~!!.....hehekk^.^
wait till my dad fetch me is almost 8pm ord...
coz he don wan fetch me at 5++
traffic jam...he hate traffic jam....
back to home take a bath
then sleep
1st day jz pass like tht....
feel weird...haha
anyway enjoy college life...
1st things tht i like the most no need to wear sch uniform...nicey!!
hehe
& one things tht make me feel stupid
''do i need to ask permission from the teacher to go toilet as usual in secondary sch??''
but i saw ppl go in & out suka hati saja...=.=
wadever la...lol
and the toilet hv tissue some more....not bad...hahahh
sua ba lao.....
ok!!
haha...thts my 1st day of college life...
suddenly miss beta friendss
how are you guys!!
wad are you all doin now....??
fine? good?
haihzzz.....
all the best for you no matter where u go
uni , poli,form 6 ,matrix or college like me
jz good luck for all of you o.....=))

❤MISS YA ALL!!!❤

why all this happen me.....WHY?!?!?

time flies...
yea
i'm gonna enter segi college soon..
after all waiting & disappointment...
trying hard to apply to all the goverment u....
jz to save $$$
& waiting for the result out
at last after 3 to 4 month
''DUKACITA DIMAKLUMKAN BAHAWA.......''
then now at last i enter segi
wan to stay at my aunt hostel
trying to be more independent...
i'hv save my $$$for it
but wad my dad say..?
he thought i'hv save lotsa $$$4k
how i can save tht much $$$ jz working for a part time job??!!
why he couldn't understand me...
blame me tht why i resign for the job at spring...
i'm planning to join the airline course already so i resign...
at last...i din join...so no work jz work for pc fair & a few road show...
thts all....
when i do my things...do he care?
do he ask wad am i doing & giving me advise...?
now i register already then he start to say me
why i do this & tht...i'm TOTALLY lose u knw..
even say me didn't discuss with him...but why didn't u ask..?
keep silent all the time....
i scare i stepped the wrong path & feel regret for whole life...
i knw some of their parent's care & arrange all the best for their son or daughtors
but me?
who give me the direction...?WHO??
and some don't even need to worry about money?
but me again hv to suffer all this...so as my sis...
was thinking of moving to my aunt hostel...
but my aunt also not the rich one..
i also plan want to find jobs at Hills
but can i carry all responsibility for my own
my daily expenses like eat & sch sometimes will also hv activities...
i jz save 1k++...
i told dad...
i guess he think whole night already..
this morning then told me don't go hostel...
daily expenses is too heavy especially eat..
how bout my transport?
he said using bus again....my life could not be escape from BUS...
& this is my life....no once could understand me....
dad still wondering why i don't wanna join the nursing course at sg
yet all the fees is free including daily expenses is provided..
but the contract? hv to work for them for 6 yrs salary / month RM5k++
but i don't even interested to the course...be a nurse i cant imagine how my life would be...& 6 yr not 6 month....i cant accept it although i no need to worry about money.....and i register at segi ord...so i wont & don't make me confuse again...PLS..='(
Monday i start class....hope everything's go smoothly...
i'm gonna find another part time jobs again...wadever jobs...
i know life shouldn't be suckss...
but my life is totally suckss..!!
when can i get through it???
sometimes crying alone is just the only way to make me feel better...
thtts all tht i can do...

downnnnn......

always says tht
be happy the way of my life...
but....can i?
life is always up & downnn....
always feel myself is isolated...
isolated where ever i am...
i hate the feeling..make me sad & downn
also make me feel stupid...
met many ppls when study & work...
i face all those by my own....Alone~!
i always think tht there is no obstacles as long as u belief in yourself...
always tough....
but
now i realize
I'm not tough enough
jz a simple words
could hurt me deeply
until i cant stand it
& the tears fall endlessly
the only things tht i can do
when i feel tht I'm alone or lonely...
i try my best to face it
but am I'm too weak...
i thought i can do it by myself
jz everything...
hate the feeling of waiting...
but always~!
I'm the one who always have to wait
waiting for nth
if you promise me
pls fulfill it PLSSS!!
i've tired of waiting...waiting till the end
with no reply & jz NTH....
ofcoz you didn't feel anything
bcoz you're not the one who WAITING...
have you ever think about my feeling???
i feel like I'm stupid being cheating & cheating with those fake promises
do i care too much
or wad....?
giving me hope but ends with nth...JZ NTH!!
I'm tht good to bully & play isn't??
am i??
I'm jz like the beginner tht no ones care at all...
i hate it...i hate this feeling....='(
i feel tht I'm so alone when doing something by myself...
although i though i can be more independent all the time...
i need time
is this jz the beginning???
the beginning of everything ?
be tough be tough be tough..!!!
i hope i can.....
when thing comes wrong...
the stupid tears fall again
i know crying cant solve the problem
but...
at least i can express it....isn't?
dunno who to talk to....
write it here just to make me feel better...?
a kind of express?
crying non-stop...
the next day morning will be a new day again
another beginning of the day...
so lets jz let it be like this ?
i don't wan to stopped at the sad moment...i don't wann....!

溫嵐-刺蝟

溫嵐-刺蝟

最后一抹的微笑

在转身之后

我闭上眼哭了

仅存的一点点骄傲

华丽的外表终于丢掉

很彷徨很孤单 是寂寞或

悲惨 一个人该怎么办



像是刺猬般防范

伪装的勇敢

不轻易让你看穿

我以为可以很坦然

面对分开时不觉得伤感

然而将灯关上 一片无

声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊

我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样

渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱

却都害怕爱让人受伤

承认我没那么坚强

不过是一而再的逞强

小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻

刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧



像是刺猬般防范

伪装的勇敢

不轻易让你看穿

我以为可以很坦然

面对分开时不觉得伤感

然而将灯关上 一片无

声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊

我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样

渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱

却都害怕爱让人受伤

承认我没那么坚强

不过是一而再的逞强

小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还

傻 刺猬的坚强全都是假象



我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样

渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱

却都害怕爱让人受伤

承认我没那么坚强

不过是一而再的逞强

小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻

刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

3days pc fair......

suddenly
hv a phone call from my primary 6 frenzz
and ask me wan to work or not
at pc fair selling maxis broadband...
they will provide transport ,lunch & dinner for us
plus~go sing k for celebration....
since i hv nothing to do at home...so jz work lo...
actually the one tht i need the most is transport....as i always hv problem with it...
the day before pc fair...
i was very nervous although i hv been to the training for two days ord...
bcoz this time was my 1st as a promoter....
and actually i do not knw anything bout it...but now hv to promote...=Z
our target is every promoter must sell 10 in one day...
goshhh....this is imposible for me....!! D:
bt try my best lo....wad to do?
we hv 8 promoter & 4 dealer
so 2 promoter under one dealer....
they write the promoter name & the dealer jz cincai draw 2
we hv two stall there one big one small....
i'm at the small one...sempit daooooo~~~
speechless....the customer dont even wan to stop for while to listen to us...
how to sell?!?!
the big stall there still hv chairs & table...
plus more space
the customers even go find the promoter themself to buy...
while us ?hv to tarik the customers gokk...sigh!!
really not in good mood tht time....
1st day i follow a really nice dealer...heng~
but i sell 4 only..=(
feel sorry to him...hmmm & he wan fetch me home gok...lol
too nice la....bt i din follow him...
coz the transport is provided ord...
jz like tht untill 10pm
they gv the intensive...
free coupon
ofcoz i din get it la...lol=.=
but met a really geng promoter
a guy which same age with me
sell 10 in one day...
he is the top seller lo.....
so 1st day jz passed like tht.....

the next day
same things
but follow a really poor dealer
suckss....ask her thing but gv me wrong info...
n me indirectly gv wrong info to customers...
one guy which is 17
say want to buy le...
but under age
i ask the dealer whether under age can buy or not...she say can
okay the guy gv me the ic for registeration ord...
then she ask others dealer...then say cannot
how could i explain to the customer?!?!?!
since you say can then now say cannot...
which customers will trust you like tht!!!
i'm really angry then i jz
ask her explain to the guy & i leave there....
aitiiii really bekk cekk & sucks...
if say in bad word can i describe her as NOOB!?!?
& she always ply save....we can prove tht which area hv 3G by using laptop
but she say laptop mb not chun...
my goshhhhh
how could she say like tht
if not chun also
we can explain tht the customers can terminate anytime...without contract
she jz say not chun
so which customer will buy if like tht...?!?!
as a dealer...she shuold be knw more things than me...
but she jz make the customers run away...serve many wan buy d liao
jz bcoz of her...all run away...urghhhhhhh!!!!
so 2nd day even worst...
i sell 3 only...tq to my dealer...!!
and the guy[top seller] waw!!
16 one day.....really pro
dunno how he did it....
he follow the nice dealer tht i follow the 1st day
they still celebrate & eat da can gokkk tht day...hmmm jlous lo...
go back home really downnnnnnnn no mood.....bath n zzz

last day
the 1st things in my mind when i woke up
I DONT WANT TO FOLLOW THT NOOB DEALER AGAIN!!!I DONT WAN!!!!!
bt still the same rule...
hv to draw...=.=
but
wakakaka
this is really lucky!!!
i follow the nice dealer.....!!:D:D
yay~~
okay this is the good beginning of the day
good mood ''on'' haha....lol
serve n serve n serve
i hv 9....one more then i can hit my target to get the free coupon...
almost giv up le....
we keep all things n wan close liao
one of my customer came back......T____T
thank god.....LOL!
he bought it
then i hv 10!!!
receive the free coupon happily...=D
back to the top seller again...
he sold 22......OMG!!
shocked...
so the last day our dealer sold the most.....no.1 haha
so is time to celebrate~~!.....i din follow my transport but follow my dealer hehe....^^
jz nice.....my dealer chia us eat...
back home with good mood....hehe

anyway meet many my frenzz there...lol
so 1st tym as promoter not bad lar....
jz hv some ppl tht make me feel horrible..!!
look down on ppl n acting...!
but jz ignore it.....
dont spoil my mood....
our tauke book a k-box oso for us
to celebrate....dunno when n dunno i'm isolated or not...
as i go myself without frenzz....
mb being forgotten.....
haihhh i go there mb would make me feel more horrible gokk!!!
so mb better i don go?
okay.....thts my experience...
hmmm....
actually always hate those promoter tht bilibala when u passed by...
but now i'm one of it....haha speechless..
they must be feel annoying...i understand...
lol but wad to do? this is my jobs maa....lol
they say
as promoter...
[We are not cheating the customers..but we are educating them...]
waaa......really love this sentence...isnt?
hihi~~=]
okay.....thts all la....
haha bye bye~!^_^

hurt...

JZ IGNORE IT....
as my sis said...
WHY...WHY i cant..!
STUPID TEARS!!!
CRYING NON-STOP.....STUPID!!!
A SIMPLE WORDS COULD HURT ME DEEPLY...
TILL I CANT FOGET IT FOREVER U KNW....?
sis i need u now....





....

is all about VIRUS!!!!URGHHHHHHH!!

ok
last few weeks
my comp always restart by itself
until i beh tahan....
go reformat...
n thx to xian rui
introduce me the guy tht repair comp
he help me reformat....
BUT....
few day after reformat
appear lotsa
trojen virus n ocipala things....
the nex day....
bcome wort my avira also disappear!!!
GOSHHH.....WAD THE HELL WAS VIRUS MADE UP OF.....?!?!?!
untill can do all this things....
arghhhh
really wan CRAZY LIAO LA....!
call the guy again...
but he say mb hv minor charge...!!~!@#%^&*
CHARGE AGAIN!!!???!?!?!?*&^%$#@!~
i hv no money liao still wan charge me...
really arhhhhh!!!
okay speechless...
he came today
after telling him wad happen...
he say this is VIRUS!
''and wad is cleanup virus?''
a software...must be someone install....
WAD???
i never see this software b4
who install...?no-one...
then where come from...is this virus again....haishhhhh...
he dunno i also dunno....sott
and luckily can solve the prob...
n NO CHARGE!!THANK GOD~
mb see me kolian....
okay here is the advise...
-don click ''update'' this button wadever it is.....absolutely don click!!
-if saw ''cleanup virus'' this things don u ever install or click them...
-if ur original antivirus disappear...there must be virus in ur comp...
-scan pendrive b4 open it....n when open...better don use double click,use explore button at the
side...can reduce virus attack...
-always ''scan all program'' when free...mean when u do nth or no on9....jz let the scan run in comp to scan the program....
-put ur file at ''backup D'' better than my document...wont easily disappear....
-in msn~if gt someone u dunno/the email tht is weird added u...don accept...it is virus..!!
~if ur frenzz send link or weird thing to u....thts mean their acc gt virus...ask them change passwords will do....
~if an acc tht not in ur frenlist send u a link or words....change ur passwords immediately ur acc is attack by virus.....
hmm
anything else...i dunno ord...
but anyway...
this is the second tym i reformat...
eveytym i increase my knowledge bout comp...virus...
i think shud be many prob not only this...
the 1st tym reformat is the ''gennuine'' things...also the virus...the ''update''button
once click then all mati liao...==
ok thts bout my comp...


and today plan cancelled...sooo SAD!!!
actually wan lim teh with bett n rach...
bett is goin to sg 2ml....dunno when come back....
but cant make it....bett hv dinner..
=(
its ok baa....wait u back cai meet le lo....
me n rach really sad...=(
nvm le...
wish u all the best in sg....
GOOD LUCK N JIA YOU!!
AZA AZA...FIGHTING!!!
must keep in touch o....will miss u d...
haihhh
wad is my feeling n mood now...
really complicated....
bla bla bla.....haihhhhhh
okla....thts all 4 today
hope everything's will be fine this few days...
BYE BYE!!