tht day nite
ah jie's dad call mum..
telling mum tht ah jie is goin to singapore after this month
my mum cried...
my sis n me also cried
once he was born
my mum take care of him till nw
nw he is goin to leave us
everything is change
i already treat him as my bro
i really cant imagine wad will happen when the day he leave us
come...
his mum never take care of children
how can my mum fang xin?
but we cant do anything
bcoz ah jie is their son..
as i've said
my dad don work for almost 2 year
n nw my mum also lose her job
how can my life continue like this
how??!!
i'm very stress..worry...sad!!
why shud i worried about prob like this
the prob tht others wont faced it
is me
my life is really different
i dunno wad will happen tomorow
and tomorow
after 3 month
i hv to continue studying
how can i still continue it
if there is no money
would i just stop my journey like this
start working
no more study???
i really afraid...really affraid!!
why my dad don work...?
i also wanted to ask him..
wad is he thinking
why he don wan to put any effort
to earn more money
gv us a better life...
and yet
he is still sitting at home...
doin nth!!
wad was u thinking?!?!?
he seems don care...why????
i dunno why?
my sister
already married
and now
her husband takes drug!!
my sis wants to stop him
then quarrel
and now li hun le
once she come my home
she keep crying
she wants her daughter back
but we do not hv money to take care of the baby...
keep crying in my bedroom
my mum n my another sis...
i jz wants to control
but when i went to kitchen
i thought my dad was taking dinner
but he is crying alone......
this is the first time i see my dad crying..
at tht moment
i cant control anymore..
i really cried...
my mum n sis knew it...
hugged each other...
and really cried badly...
and i
crying in the toilet..
why our life become like this
why happen at this time....
when the next day i'm goin to sch
to sit chemist paper..its raining
and a van hit my dad car....
i dunno wad to do
my dad jz ask me to go in to sch...
i jz go like tht...
too many its too many thing happen to me
i cant stand it...i cant!!
wad can i do is jz nth...jz crying....
i dunno when i can get through all this...
我真的要崩溃了!!!
who can understand my feeling nw...
no one...!
bcoz no one will face those prob like me...
pls...pls give me a better life...
jz better than this...
i don't want anything...i didn't ask for anything...
i jz want a simple life...
pls....
dear,i knw and understand ur hard circumstance,nw u hav graduated from f5,u may continue for further study,or jz keep workin to get ur family a better life.
ReplyDeletethis is not ur fault,not ur dad's fault,not every1's fault,u hav tp get through it,with all ur strength and ur family love.
I believe,u can get through it,cz u ar sui nee,the strong gal tat i know,and i owaz know tat u ar strong,and u can face and endure it,cz everythin wil be alright.
my suggestion to u is:
1.ur family knows and really know tat ah jie wil leave u ppl one day,mayb ur feelin is stil there,but as he stil hav to leave,u should wish him tat he could get a better life and try to contact with him if possible.
2.ur dad is not workin,is he cant find a job or really doesn't want to work? u hav to know it.and since he wil stil cryin,tat's mean he is not cold blooded,he is stil carin,u should ask him the reason.
3.for urself,if this situation continues,mayb u can stop for ur study 1st,work for 1 year,after tat,only start to study again,cz as I understand,there is few course tat is part time study.after 1 year,u wil be 18,and u stil hav plenty of time to go for ur study.
pls endure this hardship with ur family,don stand everythin on urself.tell and understand among ur family,this is wat u need now.be jimat a little bit,don buy things tat is unusable,and ur sis can work too.
trust me,i had endured all these b4,jz mayb my hardship is not as hard as urs.
after all,the best wishes from me.I wil owaz pray for u.
gambate,sui nee.u can get through it,jia you o!